Yeah

8 days! And Kevin is coming tomorrow morning!! YAY!!! I'm so ready just to hold him in my arms. Sorry about the lack of real updates. It has just dawned on me that I have a wedding in a week, so things have been a little...rushed. Kind of. I still cannot beleive that I'm getting married OR moving to New York City. I'm pretty awesome.

Bridal Luncheon and MORE!

That's my boquet! My wonderful Aunt Jodi made it. I LOVE it. The bridesmaids are smaller and wil look wonderful up next to the navy/dark blue. So...the Friday before the luncheon my aunt is throwing me a bridal luncheon. Woo hoo! And I have a GREAT idea, considering there will be about 7 little girls there. This company will let you have a Disney Princess of your choice show up to an event and wish you whatever, crown you princess and give you a dozen roses and do pictures. So I thought that would be AWESOME if Cinderella showed up at the Luncheon! All the girls would pee their pants. I'm uber excited. And I get roses and a crown...shiiiiit.
Kevin will be here on Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited!! Then the wedding is almost here!! I'm almost married! I'm almost in NYC!! Oh my!! We met with the caterer and everything looks and sound GREAT so far!! Yay!! I'm just ready to be done with this! :) Oh and is you can't see that 12 to the left, sorry, you're color blind. I think...

I love my hair.

As of today there are 28 days left. Only 27 more "wake-ups" And even less till I see Kevin. This is going to be a great month! Yesterday my friend Amanda that I've known since 11th grade (my other sister - she looks A LOT like me...) cut my hair and did my high lights. They look spectacular! I remember I let her cut my hair before she really knew how. And she died it before she went to beauty school. I let her do whatever she wants to me hair. Always have, always will. It ALWAYS turns out wonderful, so I trust her completely. She is the best. My hair looks especially gorgeous this time. I've just been in an especially great mood lately...not sure why. But, why ask why? Just roll with it! Kevin's getting our air conditioner today! Yay for cool air. I'm glad he's been working so much, I'm not sure how he'd last in the apartment with no AC. I'd be extra worried ( i already worry too much about him) about him. Also, notice how you can see the weight loss in my face between the top picture and the more recent bottom picture!! Awesome!!

What the French Toast? You lint licker!!

It's storming crazy here. Not much else is going on here...kinda bored, still excited about Kevin coming. I have accumulated 6 packs of Orbitz gum. All diferent flavors. All delicious. Perfectly Pomegranate, Strawberry Mint (delicious), Maui Melon Mint, Fabulous Fruitini, Bubblemint (also quite delicious), and finally Sangria Fresca. I think I keep getting Orbitz because I love their commercials.




Funny stuff and quite delicious gum, any flavor you choose.

And if you get a chance, Mostfun.com has a lot of fun free game to play. Caution: they can be quite addicting!!

And in other very fun news...my sizzle is pregnant again!! Baby #3!! Gabby & Parker are going to have a new sibling!! Someone else to call me aunt Sissy!! Jen already told Kevin that we'll have to plan a trip back here in April of '09! I LOVE babies!!!!!!!! YAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gongrats Jenny & Eric!

Goodness Gracious

It is officially August. AUGUST?!?!?! I'm getting married and moving in 1 month! 1 MONTH?!?!?!?! I'm just excited about seeing Kevie Wevie, my baby! Sick, I know. Haha Man I remember when it was the first day of July.

Oh wow.

37 days left!! Oh man!!! I am sooo beyond excited. Pretty much everything is done so far. I haven't packed and started living out of a suitcase, I'll wait till Kevin gets here. Pretty much everything is packed too. I just have to tape shut a few boxes. really can't believe not only am I getting married, but I'm moving 1,000 miles away!! AND some awesome news: I'm losing mad weight. When I started my weight loss, I was at 320 something. I just wanted to get under 300. Last time I went to the doctor I weighed 294!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That makes me soooo happy!! Lots of changes for me!! lots!

Excuse me, Tyra

I watch the Tyra Banks show. Actually like it most of the time. Recently she's been doing multiple shows focusing on race and racism topics. She has done 2 or 3 shows about where have all the good black men gone and why can't black women find good black men and things like that. I don't understand. Tyra makes it seem like black men should only date black women. That if they should prefer another race, they're wrong and shouldn't think like that. She also says that black women can't find the right black men to marry. Do black women HAVE to only be with black men? In case you haven't seen Kevin, he's black. In case you haven't seen me, I'm white. Are we wrong because a black man is with me and I'm white? Are we not supposed to be together because some black women can't find a black man to be with? Tyra? Can you answer me these questions? She talks about doing shows to break race barriers, I think shows like this promote them. Am I going to get shit from people who think I stole a good black man from deserving black women? I'm confused, Tyra.

Weddings

One of my good friends got married this weekend after a 3 year engagement. 3 YEARS?! I couldn't imagine. This year long one is driving me bonkers. But, The wedding was beautiful and just made me more excited about mine. Since I knew the bride pretty well, I was backstage a lot helping wherever needed. So I kinda got a feel for how my day was going to be. Except, her wedding was at 3 and mine is at 11. Every time I say that to someone, it shocks me. Why did I make the wedding at 11? I'm going to have to get up at like 3 or 4 am. Oh well. I was smoking crack that day....Kevin says he's getting excited and he misses me a lot, so that makes me feel great. And I've been so cocky lately. I'll be looking in the mirror an smile to myself and say to my mom or to myself, "Kevin is SO lucky! I'm very pretty" Narcissistic, I know. Oh well. Not too much longer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Too excited. Soo excited!!

Oh Wow

I looked at the countdown today!!! Only 44 days left!! But I'm most excited about seeing Kevin a whole week before the wedding! I miss him soooo much!!

HiYa!!!!!!!!!!!

Me, mom, and the kids got to see Kung Foo Panda last night for free, thanks to my parent's stock broker. Such a cute movie. Jack Black is funny in animation as well. Cute story and, just cute. Parker would wave his hands around like he was doing kung foo moves during the fight scenes. It's definitely a kids movie, but cute for adults to take kids to too. Kevin would've loved this movie...

Favors:Done.

I ordered my awesome magnets about 5 minutes ago. Woo hoo for cool magnet favors that will hopefully get people that come to my wedding to write me once in a while. Here's hoping!! Kevin says he hasn't been acting special, just like himself, that he loves me. Super sweet! He makes me want to eat some S'Mores...which I will do. I've reorganized my 2 bins FULL of wedding stuff. One of reception stuff and one of kids table stuff. I don't know how good of a time the adults will have, but the kids will have a blast fo sho. My room is almost clean & packed. My dream of packing everything and living out of a suitcase fir the next 53 days is almost a reality!!! I can't wait!! The kids (Gabby & Parker) are coming tomorrow to stay till Friday and after they're gone, I will pack up everything!!!! Yay for Friday/Saturday. Oh! I forgot to mention Gabby's reaction to the pillow I made her for her birthday. She loved it, despite how sad it looked! Jen, her mom, said that that night she was going to bed and hugging the pillow. She took a big whiff and sighed, "It smells like Sissy."
Very cute. I have it now from last time she stayed with me so it will smell like me again. I asked her what I smelled like. She look at me and said, "sissy." with this 'DUH' look on her face. I'm very glad she liked it. makes me happy that she'll have that after I'm in New York.

I'm back

I kinda went on a lil hibernation of staying in my bed pretty much a lot. Oh, and my mom dragged me around shoe shopping. Not for me, shoes for her. She has about 5 pairs of shoes for the wedding. She just needs to stop buying shoes. I hate to tell her that no one will be looking at her. It's all about MMEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! I'm in a much better mood recently and Kevin has been so great through all of this (except that lil bit in the beginning). I know both of us are tired of the distance. But, only 64 more days to go! 54!? I gotta get packing...haha, but really I should.

I think I'm going insane.

So. This whole wedding/moving thing has got me stressed. Stressed to the max. And I feel like no one understands. No one will help pack, even a little. Kevin just doesn't want to hear anything. And the doctor caused a whole nother break down today. So this morning I woke up around 4am and started to freak out. Why? I couldn't tell you. Nothing "set it off" or anything but I freaked out till about 8:30. Worst 4 hours of my life. My mom comes in my room and see's my face and wonders what's wrong. I start crying and tell her I don't know I'm freaking out.
"Why?" she responds to which I have no answer. Then she says I should call my Dr. to see if I can get some Xanax. Woo Hoo drugs. I'm on Welbutrin for my slight depression due to the stress and that stuff just isn't doin it. So I call the doctor and go to an appointment at 9:50. My mom & I get to the doctor's and they call my name. My mom asks if I want her to come in. Sure, why not, right? Nah. Not that great of an idea in hindsight. We're telling the doctor about my recent freak out and then my mother decides to tell the doctor about how I can't hold a job. I can't, I've had 4 in one year, but what does that have to do with anything? So the doctor says I should see this psychiatrist because whatever it is that is causing me to not be able to hold a job might be a factor that will come up later and might be why I couldn't hold a marriage together. WHAT?! I started bawling. I love Kevin. So much. That just freaked me out even more.
So we get back to the car and Kevin calls to see what the doctor said. So I handed the phone to my mom the nurse cause she could explain it better. And she did and told Kevin that he should just be nice to me and give me some TLC for a while.
So I found some cute toy golf sets for the boys' gifts in my wedding. I called Kevin to ask if he had already gotten them something, let alone think about it. And of course not. So I bought these toy golf sets. Is Kevin nice to me? No. He tells me how stupid that is and just UGH! I don't even want to talk about it. We fought all day. ALL DAY! How is that being nice to me? That's TLC? I had no idea. So we resolved all of that. Fast forward to 10 minutes ago. I called him to talk and he wants to watch some dumb movie rather than talk to me. Fine. Whatever. Sometimes he makes me so angry. I still love him, but I am so beyond waiting for this crap to happen. I'm tired of being tired of waiting. I don't want to wait for the rest of my life to start. This whole thing is just done. I don't even want a wedding anymore. Anything to get this over and done with and me moved. Anything. And on top of all this, I miss Kevin's behind like CRAZY. I miss him soooooooooooooooooooooooo bad.

That's the way the cupcake gets frosted...

That's the pink strainer, measuring items, and I forgot the pink mixing spoons my sizzle got me. Oh and it really doesn't matter what Kevin thinks, haha. I mean, I would love for him to warm up to the cupcake kitchen idea, but I've already bought most of the stuff for the kitchen and cupcake kitchen is just how it's going to be *insert me holding my hands up and shrugging* Oh well!

So last trip to New York, What I refer to as "My Last New York Vacation", Kevin bought a new video game that I quickly became obsessed with. By obsessed I mean Kevin would leave me for work and I'd be playing the game. He'd come home and I would be in the same spot, staring intently at the game, still playing intensely. Like a wonderful loving boyfriend, he let me take this PlayStation 2 game home, knowing that I did not have a PlayStation 2.
"But!" I had begged, "My sizzle does! I'm over there all the time!"Puhleeese!!!"
He allowed me to take *our* game home with me as long as I promised to never let it leave my sight. :"YES!!" I had cried joyously.
What was this horribly addicting game you ask? MARVEL VS. CAPCOM 2!!!!!!!!!!!!! This game rocks my socks. Last night I went over to my sizzle's house to play. We love virtually kicking each others ass.

We hadn't been playing very long (i.e.: I hadn't been kicking their butts that long) when I looked down and saw this: A blood blister on my thumb that didn't start hurting till after I noticed it...Man, I love playing this game. It might just look like I'm smashing buttons crazy randomly, but for the most part, I actually know what I'm doing. I spent all day while Kevin was at work practicing my craft.









Now a lot of people ask me who's my favorite character. I pick the girls a lot.Felicia is a girl I use a lot. She's quite skanky looking, but she'll totally scratch your eyes out. One of the male I use all the time is Blackheart. He spits out naked mole rat thingys that suck your face. He's pretty cool. I'm pretty sure this is the character that gave my niece Gabby nightmares. Oh, did I mention my niece loves this game? Wants me to bring it over every time I come over? She loves it. Have any of you played this game? Do you have a PlayStation 2? I can come over to your house and play! Hahahaha! Yeah, I love this game. And I'm really not a fan of video games in general. [while you're picking characters this chick sings "I wanna take you for a ride" and for the longest time Sizzle thought it sang "Jesus is alive"]

My Kitchen

Have I talked about my kitchen yet?? I don't think so...I'm beyond excited about putting my kitchen together at our new apartment. Pink & Cupcakes, who could ask for more? Kevin abhors the idea, but I think he's come to grips with the fact that our kitchen is going to be pink and filled with cupcakes. I've been gathering pink and cupcake kitchen stuff for the longest time. My favorite thing was my cupcake cookie jar that I found at Target. My sizzle got me a pink strainer, pink measuring spoons & cups, and cupcake bowls. Next to the cookie jar is one of my cupcake placemats. I also have a cute table cloth from my bridal shower. My sizzle also found a cupcake that holds a dish scrubber. SO cute!! My niece got me some cup cake dish towels like the cupcake dish rags at the top. I found a pink whisk . Also I found cute pink & white everyday dishes and cups and a mixing bowl. My best friend Amanda got me some pink cooking pans and pink mixing bowls. I found tons of pink cooking utensils at the dollar store, so I have pink spatulas, etc. too!!! I made this picture today:
I love it! A frame and cupcake scrap booking stickers and look how cool that is! I also found a precious moments chalkboard at a garage sale. I took out the precious moments picture, covered the board with cute whit scrap booking paper and the front of a card I got from my bridal shower that says: "Take life one cupcake at a time" and out lined the picture in pink puff paint. And wa lah! A cute homemade cupcake chalkboard. I'll take picture as soon as it's put back together, but it is very cute!!!

What's happening?

I don't know what my problem is. I'm anxious, crabby, and honestly just sick and tired of being 1,000 miles away from Kevin. Every time I express this to him he says, "Geez, it's only 2 months away" And I can hear his eyes roll over the phone. Then he says, "But baby, I love you! It's only 2 more months, sugarplum." Because he knows I would like him to be nice about the whole situation. I'm stressed, and quite wigged out. I have a TON of packing still left. I want to pack up clothes for the next 2 months and pack everything else and be done with it. But, I've been wanting to do that for the past months or so. I've really just gotta stop and do it. Just quit waiting for help and do it. Ugh!








On another note, today is my niece Gabby's birthday party. She'll be 5 on the 7th. That's amazing! I made her a pillow for her birthday. It's supposed to be a cute Cinderella pillow. The pillow that goes inside the cover was too small and it looks horrible! That makes me upset. This is the last birthday I'll be here with her and I can't even get her something good. I'm a horrible aunt sissy [that's what she calls me]. She constantly tells her mom she's going to move to New York to live with aunt Sissy. And every time we talk about me getting married and talks about me moving to New York. It tears me up inside. I've been there for that child since she was born! And Parker, her little brother too!! I babysit for them all the time, I love it! These kids are awesome. All I know is Jenny better keep me VERY well updated! I want pictures, the works! I would love to hear Parker talking for real. That is going to be awesome. Hearing the things that come out of Gabby's mouth is already amazing so I can't even imagine what Parker is going to say...Yeah yeah, I'm gonna miss my mom and dad and stuff. But I'm going to miss My sizzle, Gabby, and Parker the most.

Kevin is SO lucky!!

So, since I'm going over to my friends' house tonight, I thought I should be all nice Suzy homemaker and make them a blueberry pie out of those blueberries I picked the other day. So I got the pie assembled and had some left over crust and filling and made a little turnover type dealy. So When the turnover thingy was done, I split it between me, my mom, and my dad. And all agreed, I AM AWESOME! That's the finished pie over there. And in case you couldn't tell, in honor of the 4th of July, that's a firework in the pie crust...So I had called Kevin earlier just to let him know exactly how lucky he is. Not only will I make him a blueberry pie, but I hand make the crust, too [no pre-made pie crust there!] AND not only will I hand make the crust, I'll even go pick the damn blueberries. Kevin is the luckiest man alive.

Dream a Little Dream

I just has a very bad dream. Not a nightmare, just not a good dream. First of all I missed my trial run hair appointment. I was out of town or something crazy. Then my church had to back out of the wedding. The church?! I freaked. We've already sent the invitations!, cried many times. The worst part was I had to go to a new hairdresser since I missed my original hair appointment. And for some really weird reason me and my sister had switched bodies?? [I have no clue] Now, My hair is quite long and it's been growing for quite a while. I love it now, but originally started growing it out because Kevin liked long hair.So anyway, My body [Jen's mind] is sitting in the hairdressers chair. The hairdresser says that My hair is too damaged, he's going to need to cut some of the bottom off. So I say ok. He starts cutting and next thing I know, he's done. I [Jen] turn around and he chopped ALL MY HAIR OFF! It's a really cute short bob thing, but HE CHOPPED IT ALL OFF!!! So I call Kevin to tell him about this and the church. I start bawling when I get to the hair part. I kept thinking, "Oh man, he's going to be so mad, so mad!" [he wouldn't be that mad] I kept dancing around the information, then I had to wake up. C R A Z Y!

Wedding Soundtrack

Me: What songs should play in the background?
Mom: I don't know sweet love songs
Me: Oh, I should try to find some stuff Kevin would like
Mom: Nothing with cussing
Me: Okay. Then "Love in the Club" would be okay?
Mom: No, doesn't sound like it would
Me: But he's going to
Mom: What? Who's going to?
Me: Kevin is going to, Bag me like some groceries
Mom: Kara, shut up.

Open it and other random bits

I live in country. At night, my hallway is dark. When I get up to go to the bathroom, I rarely turn the light on so I don't burn my eyes. Either my mother or my father ALWAYS shuts the bathroom door after they use the restroom. Every time I go to the bathroom, BAM!, I run straight smack into the door. You'd think by like the 3rd or 4th time, I'd learn, right? Nope. I run into that door every time I get up at night. Every time!

Tomorrow is Eric's "Welcome home from your 13 month deployment" party. His parents are going all out. They even invited the UPS man. And Eric is coming into the party in a fire department driven hummer. His parents are making a HUGE deal out of this. They are so proud of their son! I'm making a cake. I wonder how many people are going to be there. I wonder if there will be good parking...

Kevin is having a party tonight at our house. He says it isn't a party but there's more than 3 people there, that's totally a party. I asked him what time they might be leaving, he said not till the morning. That's a party. I really don't care, just admit that you're having a party! As long as no girls are involved, I'm good.

My mom and I sold some gold today. We had a bunch of broken chains and random earrings. My mom said she felt like a hoosier. I did not. At all. I felt fine after that guy handed us a $142.59 check. I'm broke.

Jen and Eric had dinner tonight and I was there, along with the Flamms. Amanda had asked me to hand her a beer, Eric was in the fridge so I asked him to hand me one. He did and I said, "Thanks babe." Babe? Since when did I start calling my bro-in-law babe? A K W A R D. So I laughed and quickly said, "Oh I mean bro." Too late he heard the babe. Awkward.

And now I'm sleepy and need to interrupt Kevin's party to talk to him. Night!