Look at the cute penguins

Well, well, well. It's almost here and I'm almost gone. I just really want the sad moving stuff to be over. BUT! My WEDDING is almost HERE!!! I've been planning for a year!!! I remember when my count was at 267. now it's at 2. People have said the time would just fly by. No. These have been the S L O W E S T 2 months of my life. This last week since Kevin got here hasn't been too bad, as I predicted, but other than that time has just dragged on. Ugh. BUT I'M ALMOST A MRS.!! And I will post pictures of stuff when I'm done. My dress hasn't been posted yet cause Kevin reads this sometimes...

T-minus 5 and counting

So....it is this week! We got everything we need, i just have to put candy in bags for the kids' table. I think Imma do that now. 5 days!!!
















Oh yes, and a very happy September to you all!!

Yeah

8 days! And Kevin is coming tomorrow morning!! YAY!!! I'm so ready just to hold him in my arms. Sorry about the lack of real updates. It has just dawned on me that I have a wedding in a week, so things have been a little...rushed. Kind of. I still cannot beleive that I'm getting married OR moving to New York City. I'm pretty awesome.

Bridal Luncheon and MORE!

That's my boquet! My wonderful Aunt Jodi made it. I LOVE it. The bridesmaids are smaller and wil look wonderful up next to the navy/dark blue. So...the Friday before the luncheon my aunt is throwing me a bridal luncheon. Woo hoo! And I have a GREAT idea, considering there will be about 7 little girls there. This company will let you have a Disney Princess of your choice show up to an event and wish you whatever, crown you princess and give you a dozen roses and do pictures. So I thought that would be AWESOME if Cinderella showed up at the Luncheon! All the girls would pee their pants. I'm uber excited. And I get roses and a crown...shiiiiit.
Kevin will be here on Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited!! Then the wedding is almost here!! I'm almost married! I'm almost in NYC!! Oh my!! We met with the caterer and everything looks and sound GREAT so far!! Yay!! I'm just ready to be done with this! :) Oh and is you can't see that 12 to the left, sorry, you're color blind. I think...

BBQ food

Today I'm going to Lunch Bunch at church with my dad...Today's topic is "Show of your grandkids".......Well, I don't have grand kids, but they're BBQing, so I am there FO SHO! I'm in the mood for a BBQ Hamburger or brat and some good fixin's plus I kinda like spending time with my Pa. Everything is pretty much done for the wedding except the non-alocholic wine we're getting which is CRAZY delicious!! But, everything else is grand.

Ack!

On my wedding checklist on theknot.com there were unchecked items for the rehearsal dinner!! It's not time for that yet!! But then I remember that it almost is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my...what did I get myself into? Oh yeah, I'm in love...oh dear.

Oh wow.

37 days left!! Oh man!!! I am sooo beyond excited. Pretty much everything is done so far. I haven't packed and started living out of a suitcase, I'll wait till Kevin gets here. Pretty much everything is packed too. I just have to tape shut a few boxes. really can't believe not only am I getting married, but I'm moving 1,000 miles away!! AND some awesome news: I'm losing mad weight. When I started my weight loss, I was at 320 something. I just wanted to get under 300. Last time I went to the doctor I weighed 294!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That makes me soooo happy!! Lots of changes for me!! lots!

Weddings

One of my good friends got married this weekend after a 3 year engagement. 3 YEARS?! I couldn't imagine. This year long one is driving me bonkers. But, The wedding was beautiful and just made me more excited about mine. Since I knew the bride pretty well, I was backstage a lot helping wherever needed. So I kinda got a feel for how my day was going to be. Except, her wedding was at 3 and mine is at 11. Every time I say that to someone, it shocks me. Why did I make the wedding at 11? I'm going to have to get up at like 3 or 4 am. Oh well. I was smoking crack that day....Kevin says he's getting excited and he misses me a lot, so that makes me feel great. And I've been so cocky lately. I'll be looking in the mirror an smile to myself and say to my mom or to myself, "Kevin is SO lucky! I'm very pretty" Narcissistic, I know. Oh well. Not too much longer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Too excited. Soo excited!!

Oh Wow

I looked at the countdown today!!! Only 44 days left!! But I'm most excited about seeing Kevin a whole week before the wedding! I miss him soooo much!!

Another Bad Dream

Things have been going great! No freak outs or fights or crying. Just great. Although, I did have a bad dream last night. It was the day of my wedding and I was walking down the aisle in my dress and everything. Except the pastor. He was not Pastor Bob. He was some weird dude that looked like an old annoying actor that I can't think of his name. He was SOOOOO annoying!! Then I woke up.

Favors:Done.

I ordered my awesome magnets about 5 minutes ago. Woo hoo for cool magnet favors that will hopefully get people that come to my wedding to write me once in a while. Here's hoping!! Kevin says he hasn't been acting special, just like himself, that he loves me. Super sweet! He makes me want to eat some S'Mores...which I will do. I've reorganized my 2 bins FULL of wedding stuff. One of reception stuff and one of kids table stuff. I don't know how good of a time the adults will have, but the kids will have a blast fo sho. My room is almost clean & packed. My dream of packing everything and living out of a suitcase fir the next 53 days is almost a reality!!! I can't wait!! The kids (Gabby & Parker) are coming tomorrow to stay till Friday and after they're gone, I will pack up everything!!!! Yay for Friday/Saturday. Oh! I forgot to mention Gabby's reaction to the pillow I made her for her birthday. She loved it, despite how sad it looked! Jen, her mom, said that that night she was going to bed and hugging the pillow. She took a big whiff and sighed, "It smells like Sissy."
Very cute. I have it now from last time she stayed with me so it will smell like me again. I asked her what I smelled like. She look at me and said, "sissy." with this 'DUH' look on her face. I'm very glad she liked it. makes me happy that she'll have that after I'm in New York.

I'm back

I kinda went on a lil hibernation of staying in my bed pretty much a lot. Oh, and my mom dragged me around shoe shopping. Not for me, shoes for her. She has about 5 pairs of shoes for the wedding. She just needs to stop buying shoes. I hate to tell her that no one will be looking at her. It's all about MMEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! I'm in a much better mood recently and Kevin has been so great through all of this (except that lil bit in the beginning). I know both of us are tired of the distance. But, only 64 more days to go! 54!? I gotta get packing...haha, but really I should.

I think I'm going insane.

So. This whole wedding/moving thing has got me stressed. Stressed to the max. And I feel like no one understands. No one will help pack, even a little. Kevin just doesn't want to hear anything. And the doctor caused a whole nother break down today. So this morning I woke up around 4am and started to freak out. Why? I couldn't tell you. Nothing "set it off" or anything but I freaked out till about 8:30. Worst 4 hours of my life. My mom comes in my room and see's my face and wonders what's wrong. I start crying and tell her I don't know I'm freaking out.
"Why?" she responds to which I have no answer. Then she says I should call my Dr. to see if I can get some Xanax. Woo Hoo drugs. I'm on Welbutrin for my slight depression due to the stress and that stuff just isn't doin it. So I call the doctor and go to an appointment at 9:50. My mom & I get to the doctor's and they call my name. My mom asks if I want her to come in. Sure, why not, right? Nah. Not that great of an idea in hindsight. We're telling the doctor about my recent freak out and then my mother decides to tell the doctor about how I can't hold a job. I can't, I've had 4 in one year, but what does that have to do with anything? So the doctor says I should see this psychiatrist because whatever it is that is causing me to not be able to hold a job might be a factor that will come up later and might be why I couldn't hold a marriage together. WHAT?! I started bawling. I love Kevin. So much. That just freaked me out even more.
So we get back to the car and Kevin calls to see what the doctor said. So I handed the phone to my mom the nurse cause she could explain it better. And she did and told Kevin that he should just be nice to me and give me some TLC for a while.
So I found some cute toy golf sets for the boys' gifts in my wedding. I called Kevin to ask if he had already gotten them something, let alone think about it. And of course not. So I bought these toy golf sets. Is Kevin nice to me? No. He tells me how stupid that is and just UGH! I don't even want to talk about it. We fought all day. ALL DAY! How is that being nice to me? That's TLC? I had no idea. So we resolved all of that. Fast forward to 10 minutes ago. I called him to talk and he wants to watch some dumb movie rather than talk to me. Fine. Whatever. Sometimes he makes me so angry. I still love him, but I am so beyond waiting for this crap to happen. I'm tired of being tired of waiting. I don't want to wait for the rest of my life to start. This whole thing is just done. I don't even want a wedding anymore. Anything to get this over and done with and me moved. Anything. And on top of all this, I miss Kevin's behind like CRAZY. I miss him soooooooooooooooooooooooo bad.

Kevin is SO lucky!!

So, since I'm going over to my friends' house tonight, I thought I should be all nice Suzy homemaker and make them a blueberry pie out of those blueberries I picked the other day. So I got the pie assembled and had some left over crust and filling and made a little turnover type dealy. So When the turnover thingy was done, I split it between me, my mom, and my dad. And all agreed, I AM AWESOME! That's the finished pie over there. And in case you couldn't tell, in honor of the 4th of July, that's a firework in the pie crust...So I had called Kevin earlier just to let him know exactly how lucky he is. Not only will I make him a blueberry pie, but I hand make the crust, too [no pre-made pie crust there!] AND not only will I hand make the crust, I'll even go pick the damn blueberries. Kevin is the luckiest man alive.

Excuse me while I freak out for a second.

So...I was watching television with my mom last night. I thought of what month it was. I loudly said, "Mom!"
She said, "what?" just as loud only somewhat irritated.
"It's July!"
"Yeah?" She responded with this 'Why-you-so-crazy' look.
I don't understand why she couldn't figure out that my, "It's July" comments actually meant, "It's July and I'm getting married in September! And I'm moving to New York City! And there's still a lot to do! I'm freaking out!" She couldn't understand that? My mom doesn't know me at all....

Rehearsal Rehearsal Rehearsal Rehearsal

I got some super cute jewelry to go with my wedding rehearsal dress. My dress is black halter style and I got hot pink necklace, bracelet, earrings, and purse to go with. How cute will that be? Very cute. I'm excited about our rehearsal dinner. Kevin picked out Great Wall of China Buffet. Yay! They have all types of food, sushi bar, and a Mongolian BBQ. My favorite part is the hand-dipped ice-cream. They have the BEST flavor.

Birthday Party:

Throw yourself a party year-round! Streamers of creamy blue frosting swirls and sequin candy confetti decorate a delectable white-cake flavored ice cream. It's a party in itself, no matter what the occasion.

Why thank-you, I WILL throw myself a party! fo sho. SOOOSOOOSOOOOOSOOOOOOOSOOOOOOSOOOOSOOO Good, you have no idea. Everything about this buffet is the coolest. My mom keeps suggesting other places, she thinks it's weird to have the rehearsal dinner at a buffet? They have a back room that's kinda private. I think it will be wonderful. And their actual Chinese food is quite delectable as well.

Happy New Month!

Today is the first day of July!

This should be a fun month? Fireworks, and all sorts of other fun stuff. Yes! It will be a fun month! We've been slowly gathering fun little toys for our kids' table. It is a separate table that's going to be covered in butcher paper [so the kids can draw on it] and have a lot of little toys for the girls and boys to play with. Since 8 of my bridal party are under the age of 8, it just made sense. Speaking of the wedding: The start of july means only 67 days left till the weding! 67!!! If only it were 1 day left till the wedding....oh well, soon enough.

Wedding Soundtrack

Me: What songs should play in the background?
Mom: I don't know sweet love songs
Me: Oh, I should try to find some stuff Kevin would like
Mom: Nothing with cussing
Me: Okay. Then "Love in the Club" would be okay?
Mom: No, doesn't sound like it would
Me: But he's going to
Mom: What? Who's going to?
Me: Kevin is going to, Bag me like some groceries
Mom: Kara, shut up.

Wedding Favors a.k.a. I'm a genius

And this is my new favorite wedding detail! This is the design we are putting on magnets for our favors. This way, family and friends can have our new contact information. I designed that all by myself. I am SO PROUD of my design!! How cute is that??! And I know in my house, we stick a magnet on the fridge and it stays there f o r e v e r. So in a few weeks, months, or years a guest at our wedding will see it on their fridge and say "HMMM...Kara, I wonder how she is doing? I know! I'll call her! Or write her a letter! Or e-mail her!" How wonderful would that be? I give myself an A+++ for this idea!

At last....sort of

I mailed out my wedding invitations yesterday.

I wanted to do it a few weeks ago cause I wanted to make sure people could make time in their schedules to come. Then I wanted to wait a few more weeks because I didn't want people to forget. So I decided just to get it over with. Now I'm excited about getting the response cards back.

On another note. Kevin and his tuxedo are really starting to piss me off. Oh wait, they've already pissed me off. I had a deal thingy where he would get a free tux rental. At first, he wanted to get his in New York cause our tux place didn't have anything fly enough for him. Fine, all well and good, do whatever you want. So I would just remind him every so often to go talk about renting his tux, cause he has to see how much it is and let them know he needs it a week before and after the wedding and find out if and how much extra that would be.

Now he's saying he'll just take the free tux. WHAT?! We already told my dad he could have the free one, or we split it up between my nephews so my sister wouldn't be paying out the ass for her 4 children to be in my wedding, I can't remember.

So now all of the sudden he decides he'll just take the free one?? That's not fair! And all he'd have to do now is go get measured, and he won't even do that shit. And he won't talk about it. I also wanted all the little boys just to have nice black pants and white shirts and a navy colored tie in the wedding, Kevin refused, he didn't want any of that. I'm seriously just done with all this wedding shit. All I know is Kevin better have a tuxedo to wear at the wedding.