I don't know what my problem is. I'm anxious, crabby, and honestly just sick and tired of being 1,000 miles away from Kevin. Every time I express this to him he says, "Geez, it's only 2 months away" And I can hear his eyes roll over the phone. Then he says, "But baby, I love you! It's only 2 more months, sugarplum." Because he knows I would like him to be nice about the whole situation. I'm stressed, and quite wigged out. I have a TON of packing still left. I want to pack up clothes for the next 2 months and pack everything else and be done with it. But, I've been wanting to do that for the past months or so. I've really just gotta stop and do it. Just quit waiting for help and do it. Ugh!
On another note, today is my niece Gabby's birthday party. She'll be 5 on the 7th. That's amazing! I made her a pillow for her birthday. It's supposed to be a cute Cinderella pillow. The pillow that goes inside the cover was too small and it looks horrible! That makes me upset. This is the last birthday I'll be here with her and I can't even get her something good. I'm a horrible aunt sissy [that's what she calls me]. She constantly tells her mom she's going to move to New York to live with aunt Sissy. And every time we talk about me getting married and talks about me moving to New York. It tears me up inside. I've been there for that child since she was born! And Parker, her little brother too!! I babysit for them all the time, I love it! These kids are awesome. All I know is Jenny better keep me VERY well updated! I want pictures, the works! I would love to hear Parker talking for real. That is going to be awesome. Hearing the things that come out of Gabby's mouth is already amazing so I can't even imagine what Parker is going to say...Yeah yeah, I'm gonna miss my mom and dad and stuff. But I'm going to miss My sizzle, Gabby, and Parker the most.
4 months ago