Thursday, December 25, 2008


Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, December 22, 2008

O Tannanbaum

We got our first tree together! That was a fun experience. Kevin & I don't really know too much about buying a real Christmas tree, but his sister (who took us) is an expert. She scared the Canadian tree salesman. He was really nice. So we got him down from $45 to $35 and he gave us a free wreath because it was my birthday. He was a nice guy and told me he appreciated me saying please and thank-you cause not many people say it during the holidays. So Kevin and I decorated it yestaerday and I just loooove it!

Saturday, December 20, 2008


Happy Birthday to MEEEE!!!!!! Oh, and to Grandma Love & Isis. But mostly MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

I was so surprised!

My mom has been planning to come visit me the Monday after Christmas for a while now.On Tuesday, Kevin kept saying that his friend was coming over, then he'd have to go pick him up and then he had to go to work and he wasn't coming and blah blah blah. And for whatever reason, on Tuesday I just felt really sad, very lonely and just ick. I really didn't want Kevin to go to work, but we all know he has to. So he left and I'm being all sad on the couch - half sleeping. About 2 hours later he comes home and comes in, me surprised and very happy to see him so soon! I give him a big hug and kiss, and we go out to the living room to pick up a bit. Then I hear a knock on the door. I raised an eyebrow at Kevin and whispered for him to go answer the door, We weren't expecting anyone. "No, you're closer!" He said in a typical Kevin response. So I sigh and walk to the door and yell, "Who is it?"
"Open the door"
"Yeah, but who is it?!"
"I'm getting real tired of standing out here! Open the door!"
And that's when I recognized that voice. My mouth fell as I ran to the door. I fumbled and couldn't get the locks unlocked. I swung open the door.
My mommy came to visit me early for my birthday!!!! I had NO idea! I was completely shocked. Everyone knew except me. That was the best surprise ever! She'll be here till Sunday! I'm so happy my mommy is here.

Monday, December 8, 2008

Friday, December 5, 2008


Yay! It's December!! December is my very favorite month for a few very good reasons:

1. My birthday is this month! 12-20 baby!! I share my birthday with my new sister-in-law and my great-grandmother who is turning 97 this year! My birthday is very special because I'm pretty awesome.

2. It has cold weather. I'm a cold freak. I'm usually hot and never get cool enough. I make Kevin open the windows at night and I have them open all day. I love dressing up in cute hats and scarves and gloves an cute winter clothes. I love the cold. I'd rather wrap up in a blanket from being cold then strip to nothing cause I'm too hot. I used to want to live in Alaska for realz.

3. Hot apple cider. YUMMMM Since It's close to a bunch of seasons, it just feels right drinking warm apple cider in December. So far, I've made about 10 crock pots of hot apple cider. I am addicted. I add some cinnamon sticks, a few apple slices, a few orange slices and OMG, it is so good. In fact, I have a batch heating up right now.

4. Christmas. Duh! I love the decorations, the smells, the lights, the music, just everything about Christmas. Everyone usually seems in a better mood (usually). Cute, good movies come on TV all the time. Christmas baking is usually the best. I love Christmas cookies, and making them.

5. This December my mommy is coming to visit me for a week!!!! YAYYYY!!!!!!! I really do miss my family. I wish she was bringing my dad, sizzle, and the kids, but seeing my mom will be really cool. She can see how cute my apartment is and how clean I keep it! I really want to get her some take out from this Italian place me & Kevin love. I know she'll like their mozzerella sticks and they have the best marinara sauce. The Monday after Christmas! Yay!!!

So this is going to be a fun month. Oh yeah, and at the end of the month is New Years. What a fun month!!!!!!!

Monday, December 1, 2008


Thanksgiving was great! All the food was delicious. I had a great time. Kevin says I looked sad sometimes and I was a lil - this is the first Thanksgiving I've celebrated without my mom & dad and sizzle. Kinda sad. But I had a whole new family to share it with and that was cool.
Kevin called on Friday, inquiring about more delicious turkey. They ate it all! No more turkey!?!? So what did superwife do? I ran to the grocery store, picked up a turkey, stuffing fixings, & other odds & ends and I made our own turkey. Nope, I had never made one before. I watch food network ALL the time, so how hard could it be, right? Right... I made a 14 pound turkey that turned out moist and yummmmy. I made some of the best stuffing I've ever had, and I made homemade cranberry sauce. That week on the food network, I kept seeing this "Thanksgiving sandwich" and I've been dying to try one ever since. Luckily I made all the right things. I ate 3 of those yummy sandwiches. For those of you wondering, this is a "Thanksgiving sandwich":

1. 2 pieces of whatever bread
2. turkey
3. stuffing
4. cranberry sauce

pile all together one on top of the other, smush together and eat!

This was just as delicious as it looked. And now we have a whole turkey sitting in the fridge for our enjoyment. We do need some more pie, though. My apple pie turned out WONDERFUL. I make really good homemade pie crust, which surprises even me.

Stay tuned for turkey leftover recipes...hahahahahaha

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Happy Thanksgiving!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Cake man today!

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Ooh Fun

So one of the things I acquired when I got married was shared use os a Mac. I was excited cause a Mac is what I firt used in elementary school and my dd had a R E A LL Y old 83 or something. And these are WAY cool. Look at my pictures I took: (warning; I am slightly weird sometimes...)

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Thanksgiving and such

Oh boy is my fat butt excited about Thanksgiving! Not only is it Kevin & I's first Thanksgiving, we are having it at his mother's house, and not ours (I don't think I'm ready for that just yet...). I'm bringing some of my families traditional dishes because his family makes nothing I have ever had at Thanksgiving. Oh but it all sounds soooooo good.

What I am making:

Party potatoes
Corn/cornbread casserole
green bean casserole
sweet potatoes with marshmallows
reg. mashed potatoes
apple pie
my famous delicious pumpkin roll

What I remember that his fam is making:
pork roast
greens (I've never had these so i am excited)
mac & cheese (I LOVE mac & cheese)
sweet potatoes
potato salad
sweet potatoe pie (very excited about this after my trying to impress Kevin last Christmas sweet potato pie...)

YUMMMMMMMM I'm excited. And we're all going to play some games at Thanksgiving. Charades and Poquino. Anything else fun anyone can think of to play???????

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Union Square

Earlier this week I went to Union Square after eating lunch at this delightful place. Union Square was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO cool. They had a farmer's market thing y up. Awesome. I got some apples to make applesauce. I got some fresh brussel sprouts. I love brussel sprouts. I also got some fresh rosemary. Have you ever smelled fresh rosemary?? That stuff smells so good! I wanna put a little bit in a vase cause it smells crazy good. Oh and I passed by this booth with hot apple cider and got a cup then a quart for at home. I loooooovvvvveee hot apple cider. It is so good. So, Union Square was one of the coolest things I've done so far here. Quite neat.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

My Recent Drunk & Sober Events

So sorry for not really updating especially when I;m bored A L O T. This past Monday I went out with my old high school friend Shannon. We went to a bar in Spanish Harlem. They had some sangria. Some very delicious sangria. I didn't realize how much I had to drink till we were getting ready to leave and I stood up for the first time since we had sat down. And then, not until I was on the train did I really realize how really drunk I was.

Me and Kevin got into a big fight so I ended up sad drunk instead of fun happy drunk. Drunk and riding the subway are not a good combo. BUT, I had an awesome time catching up with Shannon and hope her working ass can do it again soon. She's my new best friend. Hahahahaha...I'm so lonely. Ok not really but I really did have a good time. And I made it safely home at night, by myself, and drunk. So I rock. Note: Drunk dialing your mom and mom-in-law is NOT a good idea, they will make fun of you afterwards.

Starting yesterday, my jaw/teeth have been a wreck. My mouth hurts sooooooooooooo bad. I know it's cause I need the root of my back tooth pulled. Kevin says we can afford it next week. So Ibuprofen and Tylenol are on a good schedule here. And liquid orajel when those aren't completely workig. I take deep breaths and suck it up, lay down, and put ice on it. When I'm freaking out too much over it I take my anxiety medicine, then I go nite nite a lot easier. Phew.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Thursday, October 2, 2008


I made this for supper last night and it was really good. I made a few changes. Instead of celery I used onion and at the end I put in 2 cups of rice to cook up in the broth. Very good! Oh and I didn't use the crackers...

Spicey Sausage and Pepper Stew
What you need:

3/4 lb. (12 oz.) reduced fat hot Italian sausage, cut into 1/2-inch-thick slices
1 medium green pepper, chopped (about 1 cup)
1 stalk celery, sliced
2 Tbsp. flour
1 can (14 oz.) reduced sodium beef broth
2 cans (14-1/2 oz. each) no-salt-added diced tomatoes, undrained
2 cans (15-1/2 oz. each) kidney beans, drained, rinsed
45 PREMIUM Unsalted Tops Saltine Crackers

Make it:

COOK sausage, pepper and celery in large saucepan on medium-high heat 8 to 10 minutes or until sausage is no longer pink, stirring frequently; drain.

ADD flour; cook and stir 1 minute. Stir in broth, tomatoes with their liquid and beans. Bring to boil; reduce heat to low. Cover; simmer 20 minutes, stirring occasionally.

SERVE with crackers.

Monday, September 29, 2008

Harry's House of Weiners?

My dad's name is Harry. So when we saw this truck, much laughter ensued and I HAD to get a picture. In case you can't really see, under that hot dog it says "Harry's House of Weiners." Priceless.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Who am I?

Living in my very own house has changed me. Completely. For those of you who knew me in my pre-my-own-house stage, I was a messy person. Quite messy actually. I have morphed into my mother and sister upon stepping foot in the door and arranging all the furniture. I clean everyday. I do dishes at least twice a day. I make the bed every morning. I barely recognize my self after a wonderful cleaning session. What have I become? I used to make fun of my mom for over cleaning when company was going to come over, but when I found out yesterday afternoon that Kevin's friend might be coming first I was upset that he didn't tell me earlier and give me enough time to clean well, then I spent all afternoon cleaning. Kitchen, bathroom, living room, mopping, vacuuming, dusting, the works. I felt great when I lit the candles and sat back on my couch with a clean, great-smelling apartment.

Who am I?

In other news...

I love it here!! I've been on the subway and the bus all by myself and I didn't get lost!!! I am very proud of my self. I went to Times Square and had a piece of cheescake from Junior's (the best). I even brought Kevin home a piece, I'm a great wife. I've cooked every night, except one when me and Kevin went out. I love walking to the grocery store in like 4 seconds instead of a 30 minute car ride. Everything I need is here where I live and takes barely any effort to walk to. It's awesome.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Some more pictures

My aunt did a GREAT job!

Friday, September 12, 2008

I'm married

this is just a short update. I'm almost all moved into our apartment and settled. Here's one of hundreds of pictures there is much much more to come.

Saturday, September 6, 2008



Thursday, September 4, 2008

Look at the cute penguins

Well, well, well. It's almost here and I'm almost gone. I just really want the sad moving stuff to be over. BUT! My WEDDING is almost HERE!!! I've been planning for a year!!! I remember when my count was at 267. now it's at 2. People have said the time would just fly by. No. These have been the S L O W E S T 2 months of my life. This last week since Kevin got here hasn't been too bad, as I predicted, but other than that time has just dragged on. Ugh. BUT I'M ALMOST A MRS.!! And I will post pictures of stuff when I'm done. My dress hasn't been posted yet cause Kevin reads this sometimes...

Monday, September 1, 2008

T-minus 5 and counting is this week! We got everything we need, i just have to put candy in bags for the kids' table. I think Imma do that now. 5 days!!!

Oh yes, and a very happy September to you all!!

Thursday, August 28, 2008


8 days! And Kevin is coming tomorrow morning!! YAY!!! I'm so ready just to hold him in my arms. Sorry about the lack of real updates. It has just dawned on me that I have a wedding in a week, so things have been a little...rushed. Kind of. I still cannot beleive that I'm getting married OR moving to New York City. I'm pretty awesome.

Monday, August 25, 2008

Bridal Luncheon and MORE!

That's my boquet! My wonderful Aunt Jodi made it. I LOVE it. The bridesmaids are smaller and wil look wonderful up next to the navy/dark blue. So...the Friday before the luncheon my aunt is throwing me a bridal luncheon. Woo hoo! And I have a GREAT idea, considering there will be about 7 little girls there. This company will let you have a Disney Princess of your choice show up to an event and wish you whatever, crown you princess and give you a dozen roses and do pictures. So I thought that would be AWESOME if Cinderella showed up at the Luncheon! All the girls would pee their pants. I'm uber excited. And I get roses and a crown...shiiiiit.
Kevin will be here on Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited!! Then the wedding is almost here!! I'm almost married! I'm almost in NYC!! Oh my!! We met with the caterer and everything looks and sound GREAT so far!! Yay!! I'm just ready to be done with this! :) Oh and is you can't see that 12 to the left, sorry, you're color blind. I think...

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Ugh! Be Quiet!

Everything in my house seems to be breaking. My mom's car needs a whole new engine. My mom and dad's computer might be broken. AND...the most annoying thing has happened to the dryer. It still dries and stuff but about every 2 minutes a horrible and loud screetching noise emits from the dryer. It is the worst. I have a horrible headache because of it. It's doing it right now in fact. I think my brain is melting.

Monday, August 18, 2008


That is right folks...19 days left! I'm back from getting my dress altered. It looks WONDERFUL!!! I love my dress SOO much. The 5 hour drive there & back was quite fun. A last major road trip (not including the one helping me move to NYC) before I move. I love my mommy. I got some books for my niece and nephew and an awesome present for my sizzle. I'll write more when I get home tonight!

Friday, August 15, 2008

I'm out of town till Sunday. I'm going to pick up my wedding dress! My grandma is altering it for me. See ya Sunday!

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

BBQ food

Today I'm going to Lunch Bunch at church with my dad...Today's topic is "Show of your grandkids".......Well, I don't have grand kids, but they're BBQing, so I am there FO SHO! I'm in the mood for a BBQ Hamburger or brat and some good fixin's plus I kinda like spending time with my Pa. Everything is pretty much done for the wedding except the non-alocholic wine we're getting which is CRAZY delicious!! But, everything else is grand.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

I love my hair.

As of today there are 28 days left. Only 27 more "wake-ups" And even less till I see Kevin. This is going to be a great month! Yesterday my friend Amanda that I've known since 11th grade (my other sister - she looks A LOT like me...) cut my hair and did my high lights. They look spectacular! I remember I let her cut my hair before she really knew how. And she died it before she went to beauty school. I let her do whatever she wants to me hair. Always have, always will. It ALWAYS turns out wonderful, so I trust her completely. She is the best. My hair looks especially gorgeous this time. I've just been in an especially great mood lately...not sure why. But, why ask why? Just roll with it! Kevin's getting our air conditioner today! Yay for cool air. I'm glad he's been working so much, I'm not sure how he'd last in the apartment with no AC. I'd be extra worried ( i already worry too much about him) about him. Also, notice how you can see the weight loss in my face between the top picture and the more recent bottom picture!! Awesome!!

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Old Lady

Me and my sizzle went to the mall tonight and then to Max & Erma's to eat. Jen had to go to the bathroom while me and Parker went and sat down. Jenny came back to the table with a shocked look on her face. "The lady in the front told me that my old lady and my baby were straight back." WHAT?! Her old lady? I am neither old or her wife or her mother. I think this chick was just not very smart. I got called an old lady. Jen said I don't look that old...

Wednesday, August 6, 2008


On my wedding checklist on there were unchecked items for the rehearsal dinner!! It's not time for that yet!! But then I remember that it almost is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my...what did I get myself into? Oh yeah, I'm in love...oh dear.

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

What the French Toast? You lint licker!!

It's storming crazy here. Not much else is going on here...kinda bored, still excited about Kevin coming. I have accumulated 6 packs of Orbitz gum. All diferent flavors. All delicious. Perfectly Pomegranate, Strawberry Mint (delicious), Maui Melon Mint, Fabulous Fruitini, Bubblemint (also quite delicious), and finally Sangria Fresca. I think I keep getting Orbitz because I love their commercials.

Funny stuff and quite delicious gum, any flavor you choose.

And if you get a chance, has a lot of fun free game to play. Caution: they can be quite addicting!!

And in other very fun sizzle is pregnant again!! Baby #3!! Gabby & Parker are going to have a new sibling!! Someone else to call me aunt Sissy!! Jen already told Kevin that we'll have to plan a trip back here in April of '09! I LOVE babies!!!!!!!! YAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gongrats Jenny & Eric!

Sunday, August 3, 2008

Lab Shmab

I had some blood work done for the doctor a few weeks ago. My results came in the mail the other day. Everything came back normal!!! This is the first time in my whole life my lab results have come back normal! My new doctor is awesome. My polycystic ovaries are under control. My thyroid levels are perfect. My iron isn't low! My folic acid isn't low! For once, I'm normal! This is the first doctor since I started my female joy to tell me he thinks I have polycystic ovaries. My period has never been on schedule my whole life, which was actually pretty cool, but not so cool when you eventually want babies, which I sooo do. So I started on this medicine and for the first time in my whole life, my period started exactly when it was supposed to. I had been worried because in my car accident I had had a stroke in my coma. So the doctors told me I couldn't do regular birth control because of blood clotting. But I talked to my new OB/GYN at my last appointment and she explained I just couldn't use birth control with estrogen in it! But there will still some options for me!! So that visit I got the Depro-vera Shot! Not only are my labs normal, but now we won't have a baby till we're ready. AWESOME! Sorry if I grossed a few of you out.

Friday, August 1, 2008

Goodness Gracious

It is officially August. AUGUST?!?!?! I'm getting married and moving in 1 month! 1 MONTH?!?!?!?! I'm just excited about seeing Kevie Wevie, my baby! Sick, I know. Haha Man I remember when it was the first day of July.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Oh wow.

37 days left!! Oh man!!! I am sooo beyond excited. Pretty much everything is done so far. I haven't packed and started living out of a suitcase, I'll wait till Kevin gets here. Pretty much everything is packed too. I just have to tape shut a few boxes. really can't believe not only am I getting married, but I'm moving 1,000 miles away!! AND some awesome news: I'm losing mad weight. When I started my weight loss, I was at 320 something. I just wanted to get under 300. Last time I went to the doctor I weighed 294!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That makes me soooo happy!! Lots of changes for me!! lots!

Monday, July 28, 2008

Excuse me, Tyra

I watch the Tyra Banks show. Actually like it most of the time. Recently she's been doing multiple shows focusing on race and racism topics. She has done 2 or 3 shows about where have all the good black men gone and why can't black women find good black men and things like that. I don't understand. Tyra makes it seem like black men should only date black women. That if they should prefer another race, they're wrong and shouldn't think like that. She also says that black women can't find the right black men to marry. Do black women HAVE to only be with black men? In case you haven't seen Kevin, he's black. In case you haven't seen me, I'm white. Are we wrong because a black man is with me and I'm white? Are we not supposed to be together because some black women can't find a black man to be with? Tyra? Can you answer me these questions? She talks about doing shows to break race barriers, I think shows like this promote them. Am I going to get shit from people who think I stole a good black man from deserving black women? I'm confused, Tyra.

Sunday, July 27, 2008


One of my good friends got married this weekend after a 3 year engagement. 3 YEARS?! I couldn't imagine. This year long one is driving me bonkers. But, The wedding was beautiful and just made me more excited about mine. Since I knew the bride pretty well, I was backstage a lot helping wherever needed. So I kinda got a feel for how my day was going to be. Except, her wedding was at 3 and mine is at 11. Every time I say that to someone, it shocks me. Why did I make the wedding at 11? I'm going to have to get up at like 3 or 4 am. Oh well. I was smoking crack that day....Kevin says he's getting excited and he misses me a lot, so that makes me feel great. And I've been so cocky lately. I'll be looking in the mirror an smile to myself and say to my mom or to myself, "Kevin is SO lucky! I'm very pretty" Narcissistic, I know. Oh well. Not too much longer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Too excited. Soo excited!!

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Oh Wow

I looked at the countdown today!!! Only 44 days left!! But I'm most excited about seeing Kevin a whole week before the wedding! I miss him soooo much!!

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Blacker the Berry, Sweeter the Juice.

My mom called me this morning, "Kara, they're lining up to pick fruit!" I wasn't all that excited. But, I woke up and decided to walk up to the pickin' place. I'd already got blueberries so I decided to try blackberries. Did you know they have thorny varieties and non-thorny varieties of blackberries?? My hands know. I couldn't find the non-thorny blackberries! I got stuck a lot and I kept hearing people telling others that others in their group had bloody arms and hands already. So after 2 little plastic bins were filed. I was done. And, there were a lot of people. It was hard to find ripe blackberries. I wanna make cobbler or something, but we need more butter. I also got a yellow squash.

Wind Ridge Farm Need a pickin partner? I live next door!!!!

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Another Bad Dream

Things have been going great! No freak outs or fights or crying. Just great. Although, I did have a bad dream last night. It was the day of my wedding and I was walking down the aisle in my dress and everything. Except the pastor. He was not Pastor Bob. He was some weird dude that looked like an old annoying actor that I can't think of his name. He was SOOOOO annoying!! Then I woke up.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

It's a beautiful day in the hood

Kevin won't answer my question of do we live in the hood. Is that a yes?

Friday, July 18, 2008

Parker has big muscles!

This is Parker showing off his guns...

Thursday, July 17, 2008


Me, mom, and the kids got to see Kung Foo Panda last night for free, thanks to my parent's stock broker. Such a cute movie. Jack Black is funny in animation as well. Cute story and, just cute. Parker would wave his hands around like he was doing kung foo moves during the fight scenes. It's definitely a kids movie, but cute for adults to take kids to too. Kevin would've loved this movie...

Wednesday, July 16, 2008


This is going to be a fun rest of the week!! I get to watch the kids!!! My niece & nephew! I'm sure I'll be tired of this by later today. NAH! This is gonna be a blast!! My sis and her husband are going on their honeymoon from 2 years ago. Bout time! They didn't really have the money when they got married, and then there was that whole 13 month deployment thingy. So they've [Jen at least] have been planning this for awhile. Hope they have fun!!!

Tuesday, July 15, 2008


I ordered my awesome magnets about 5 minutes ago. Woo hoo for cool magnet favors that will hopefully get people that come to my wedding to write me once in a while. Here's hoping!! Kevin says he hasn't been acting special, just like himself, that he loves me. Super sweet! He makes me want to eat some S'Mores...which I will do. I've reorganized my 2 bins FULL of wedding stuff. One of reception stuff and one of kids table stuff. I don't know how good of a time the adults will have, but the kids will have a blast fo sho. My room is almost clean & packed. My dream of packing everything and living out of a suitcase fir the next 53 days is almost a reality!!! I can't wait!! The kids (Gabby & Parker) are coming tomorrow to stay till Friday and after they're gone, I will pack up everything!!!! Yay for Friday/Saturday. Oh! I forgot to mention Gabby's reaction to the pillow I made her for her birthday. She loved it, despite how sad it looked! Jen, her mom, said that that night she was going to bed and hugging the pillow. She took a big whiff and sighed, "It smells like Sissy."
Very cute. I have it now from last time she stayed with me so it will smell like me again. I asked her what I smelled like. She look at me and said, "sissy." with this 'DUH' look on her face. I'm very glad she liked it. makes me happy that she'll have that after I'm in New York.


I'm not so smart. It's actually 53 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm back

I kinda went on a lil hibernation of staying in my bed pretty much a lot. Oh, and my mom dragged me around shoe shopping. Not for me, shoes for her. She has about 5 pairs of shoes for the wedding. She just needs to stop buying shoes. I hate to tell her that no one will be looking at her. It's all about MMEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!! I'm in a much better mood recently and Kevin has been so great through all of this (except that lil bit in the beginning). I know both of us are tired of the distance. But, only 64 more days to go! 54!? I gotta get packing...haha, but really I should.

Friday, July 11, 2008

I think I'm going insane.

So. This whole wedding/moving thing has got me stressed. Stressed to the max. And I feel like no one understands. No one will help pack, even a little. Kevin just doesn't want to hear anything. And the doctor caused a whole nother break down today. So this morning I woke up around 4am and started to freak out. Why? I couldn't tell you. Nothing "set it off" or anything but I freaked out till about 8:30. Worst 4 hours of my life. My mom comes in my room and see's my face and wonders what's wrong. I start crying and tell her I don't know I'm freaking out.
"Why?" she responds to which I have no answer. Then she says I should call my Dr. to see if I can get some Xanax. Woo Hoo drugs. I'm on Welbutrin for my slight depression due to the stress and that stuff just isn't doin it. So I call the doctor and go to an appointment at 9:50. My mom & I get to the doctor's and they call my name. My mom asks if I want her to come in. Sure, why not, right? Nah. Not that great of an idea in hindsight. We're telling the doctor about my recent freak out and then my mother decides to tell the doctor about how I can't hold a job. I can't, I've had 4 in one year, but what does that have to do with anything? So the doctor says I should see this psychiatrist because whatever it is that is causing me to not be able to hold a job might be a factor that will come up later and might be why I couldn't hold a marriage together. WHAT?! I started bawling. I love Kevin. So much. That just freaked me out even more.
So we get back to the car and Kevin calls to see what the doctor said. So I handed the phone to my mom the nurse cause she could explain it better. And she did and told Kevin that he should just be nice to me and give me some TLC for a while.
So I found some cute toy golf sets for the boys' gifts in my wedding. I called Kevin to ask if he had already gotten them something, let alone think about it. And of course not. So I bought these toy golf sets. Is Kevin nice to me? No. He tells me how stupid that is and just UGH! I don't even want to talk about it. We fought all day. ALL DAY! How is that being nice to me? That's TLC? I had no idea. So we resolved all of that. Fast forward to 10 minutes ago. I called him to talk and he wants to watch some dumb movie rather than talk to me. Fine. Whatever. Sometimes he makes me so angry. I still love him, but I am so beyond waiting for this crap to happen. I'm tired of being tired of waiting. I don't want to wait for the rest of my life to start. This whole thing is just done. I don't even want a wedding anymore. Anything to get this over and done with and me moved. Anything. And on top of all this, I miss Kevin's behind like CRAZY. I miss him soooooooooooooooooooooooo bad.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

I think the kitchen is complete!

All I needed was a clock. So what did I find today?? Cupcake patches. What did I do with them?
A cupcake clock!! And I made it myself!! This I am extremely proud of!! Now it's time to go post kitchen pics to MySpace and Facebook so everyone can look on in awe at how cool I am and be jealous. Jealous of my fantastic kitchen.

My kitchen cont. And my bathroom

I'm so over and done with getting stuff for the wedding (except fun things for the kids table...). I' way more interested in making/acquiring things to make my NYC apartment look awesome! I think I'm doing a good job so far. My latest projects include making the cupcake kitchen chalkboard. And here's how it turned out:I think it looks pretty sweet. Sweet as in awesome and sugary. I love love love using scrap booking paper for backgrounds in projects. It's inexpensive (4/$1.00 or 2/$1.00 or less)and comes already colored and designed! Great.
Now my bathroom is going to be pretty cool too. Me and my mom were at some store and found a New York skyline shower curtain. Instant bathroom decorating theme! So, using my aunt's nifty picture making idea I now have these to go into the bathroom:

And yesterday and the wonderful Hobby Lobby, their wall decorations were 50% off. That's always a good deal, right? Yes it is. My mommy found this that I bought: Yeah that's metal.

Also while we were roaming around Hobby Lobby, my mom found this magnet That I forgot to take a picture of before I sent it this mornin, but this is what it says with a different picture:I thought it was very cute considering I don't get there for 2 more months. Hahahahahahaha. My home is going to be the cutest ever!